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Wednesday 13DEC00                                                  
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It's your elfin fool again, God.  Thank you.  Thank you.  Thank you.
I know I could utter a 1001 thank you's, and every last one would 
mean nothing if I did not thereafter live your will.  Truly, my    
unworthiness notwithstanding, these recent days have been whirly  
ones, miracle ones.  Today there were five events of moment:       
1) the decision to move our mobile home out of Pinehurst 
     by January 31, 2001, in order to receive $2000/ to            
     use for moving/ from the development company taking              
     over this property                                         
2) the Mid-Florida Area Agency on Aging's exceptionally             
     well-catered Christmas Party complete with the                
     harkening GHS Chorale                                       
3) the surprise presents for me from J- and N- and T-                
4) my likely last official day at the Center for Aging              
     Resources                                                   
5) the continuing special circumstances integral to the            
     miracle gift is appears is coming from my highest    
     angel here on Earth.                                       
"There should be no end to the thanks I show"                      
                                                                   
Thursday 14DEC00                                                 
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St. John of the Cross.  How amazing!  But I must wait.           
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Stopped by the bank this morning on my way to my Chick-fil-A job.
After work I made phone contact from home with the bank woman    
who is helping me.  Nothing new, so I phoned the pivotal bank    
woman up north and found out she had to be away from her bank   
most of the day.  I suggested to her I might make another touch-
base call to the source woman, a woman I regarded as holy.  She 
said she is a character, a description I had to agree with.  I
decided not to call, as I did not want to appear pushy.  As the  
bank woman here said: "We will just have to wait and pray."     
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What a first day of work!  That Chick-fil-A is so constantly busy
that I told one of the other employees:  "This place is famous." 
The services I perform there are far from being the kinds of     
services I would prefer to be performing, but if I can acclimate
myself to six hours of light but rather constant physical labor,
the exercise will hopefully be beneficial in spite of my asthma  
and osteoporosis, etcetera.  It is baldly humble work.  There was,
curiously, one particularly rewarding incident: when I freed a    
small boy's foot that had gotten caught in the netting of what I   
will here call the jungle gym tower tunnel slide.  I happened to  
be where I could hear that child's whining/ only because the girl
I was working with asked me to clean the windows in the play area.
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I now must leave this online place to prepare some highly vital   
information for the bank woman who is helping me.                
                                                                  
Friday 15DEC00                                                   
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My normal Chick-fil-A work hours are 10am-4pm.  It was so busy I
wasn't able to take my 20-minute meal break until 3:12pm.  and  
because I was working alone for several hours, I found it hard
to keep abreast of the traffic.  Several times I spoke to St.  
Alphonsus Rodriquez about it.  It occurred to me that perhaps  
this finally is the motivation I need to find new permanent work
more suited to my talents.  I'm honestly not sure I can labor as
I am now for long.  As good as the activity may be for me, it is
severely pushing my limits.                                       
                                                                   
Saturday 16DEC00                                                  
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Busy, busy, busy: from 11:15am to 2:45pm.  At least James, who 
is 15, was with me.  Toward the end of my shift I told Daniel, a 
huge black man who is one of the bosses, that this work is good    
for humility.  He smiled.  During my break today I had a bowl of
chicken soup.  Out in the car after work I had another conver-
sation with St. Alphonsus as I drove off.  Humility.  I do need
it.  Still am not sure how well my body will tolerate/ this much
physical work.  Besides which, there is no indication my job is
going to be anything near permanent.  Therefore, I am going to  
continue to seek employment more fitting for me.  The Enrollee
Supervisor at AARP told me she too will continue to be on the   
lookout for such work for me.  I plan to contact Sante Fe Com-
munity College.  Securing employment there would definitely    
please me.                                                       
                                                                      
Sunday 17DEC00                                                    
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Saint of The Day: Lazarus, he whom Jesus raised from the dead.
Will I, who am financially dead, be raised back to financial vitality?
Will I, by the grace of The Holy Spirit, become a truly productive
servant, and one who is given both praise and substantial monies    
for enough of his creations so as to one day be able to repay his   
past debts?  Do I have the talents to so succeed, or will I always
be a poor poet who may as well be forming his word creations in an
unknown cave?  As long as I am alive, I am going to try (with the  
talents I have) to so succeed.  I know/ I may be dead before        
tomorrow.  I know my days ahead are not likely to be pleasant ones.
I could even suffer a terribly debilitating stroke, or any manner of   
illness that would greatly curtail my ability to pursue any dreams of    
respectful self-sufficiency.  I will pray and work and hope.  I cannot  
do else.  And of my anger, my inability to forgive myself?  I can
only pray and work and hope, and seek faith, and learn to love.    
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Before you boldly reach for a star,                                            
know who you are.
                                                   
                                                                    
                                                                  
                                                                 
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