where i am

                                                 
                                                           
How markedly I've screwed up my life: I do not want
to think about it; and you, I doubt, want to know.
And yet those wonders which presently are filtering
into my waning days/ might never have been had I not
made the errors I've made.  To demystify the mystery
of being would require that knowledge which only an
Alpha Omega Infinite possesses.  So it is AM 11:51
this Saturday of 18 August, 2007; and I am here on 
my pillowed stool typing these symbols.  At the same
time, I am several elsewheres via my senses and the
activities in my mind.  Noon approaches.  I am alone.
Possibly not.  Unexpectedly/ voices escape from my
subconscious// speak to me: congenial voices.  They
are, however somewhat odd, and in that way like the
sounds of machines and certain natural sounds.  The
story writers have/ a keener sense of such voicings.
But I digress.  Where I am, honestly, is to me a
persistent unknown.  Each current moment depends so
heavily on each past (passed) moment; yet, is just
that: a current: a moving/ Janus enigma; and while
what happens at each new point appears to matter as
regards each future moment, there are far too many
variables for such an appearance to be ever reliable.
So: sometimes yes; sometimes no.  Uncertainty is my
milieu/// I once wrote.  Homo sapiens.  Sure, sure.         
                                                          
Constantly phasing into this or that while phasing 
out from this or that, my being is unfathomable to 
me, however fathomable my biological manifestation.   
And what are we headed toward?  I have called it:    
Machina sapiens; another calls it: Cyber sapiens.
Read Fr. Pierre Teilhard de Chardin, S.J.: his book
The Phenomenon of Man especially.  Also read this
essay by Peter Weibel (all three parts).               *

                                                        
                                                      
                                                     
                                                    
                                                     
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