why i am isolated

                                         
                                               
 Reasons: health, time, money, opinions                 
                                             
Health: Due mostly to one disease and the    
complications of it.  I inherited a frail body.   
That body led to osteoporosis when I 
was in my late fifties.  Causes beyond  
the genetic ones were multiple.  It didn't
help that I wasn't careful enough when I  
encountered situations requiring strength.
I have three fractured vertebrae, and so  
have exacerbated kyphosis.  Once 5'6.5",  
I am now less than 4'11".  Disease number
two--now being controlled by a medication--
is adult-onset epilepsy.  During the time  
when it was not yet under control, I was
forced to quit both working and driving
at the same time.  Could probably go back
to driving, but don't think it would be a
wise choice.                              
                                         
Time: Use of it is difficult, not that it ever  
was easy for me.  My thoughts and my
imaginings have always taken precedence   
in spite of my knowing I must have a body
which is sufficiently healthy first.     
                                          
Money: Barely have enough to survive on.
Therefore, I have had to stop indulging  
several pleasures, driving being one of  
them.                                    
                                        
Opinions: I am an aesthetic chameleon.  
My interests are varied, and persist in
ways I suspect most others are unable to
comfortably relate to.  I make no special
claims for myself.  A Richard Wagner I'm
not.  So why am I even online?  Because
however odd I am, I do need to interact,
to learn, to share; and the Internet is  
at this time the best place to be for one
who wishes to do such things.  Actually,
it has gotten so that even if every other
who is online shut me out, I would remain
with the winds and the shadows of my being
in my chosen places, and continue to tap
tap tap.                                  
                                           
                                           
                                             
                                           
Rho00136